Why is the twin flame journey so painful
What is the purpose of the Twin Flame Journey?
hey guys my name is Jen Edwards and in
today's episode I'm going to talk about
twin flames and the purpose of this
journey so first of all I want to thank
you so much for being here I'm so
appreciative this topic is a relatively
new topic to me and I've been on the
journey for seven years now and believe
it or not only found out about Twin
Flames about four or five months ago and
had I known about this journey long
before now I probably could have saved
myself a tremendous amount of pain and
so I wanted to start to share sort of my
experience and and after I got the
awareness of the journey what it was the
Downloads that have been coming to me
and the information that's being shared
with me on a higher plane so that it can
help you in your journey because I know
for me this journey has been extremely
painful and so I just want to help as
many people as possible because I feel
like there's more twins coming into
incarnation right now than ever before
and it's a really difficult journey if
you don't know what's going on and you
can really think you're crazy if you
don't know what's going on and so I want
to share with you some of the stuff that
I've been getting and so I'm gonna be
filming on a regular basis and sharing
with you my journey and personal stories
and helping as I've helped other people
their stories as well so that you can
get some clarity around this because
this can really wreak havoc on your life
if you know what I mean so again thank
you so much for being here I was
meditating and praying before I started
shooting this and then whenever I
completed it I looked at the clock and
it was 222 and so it's like mmm that's
very divine that I would have finished
that part of getting ready to do this
and shoot this at that point so I just
want to talk about first of all the
purpose of the gym the Twin Flame
journey because I think that people get
really caught up in Union they get
really caught up in trying to figure out
the stages and they get
caught up is he my twin flame or is she
my twin flame but there's a higher
purpose to all of this and that's where
I really want to start my channel I want
to start it at purpose because when you
know the purpose then you can then
expand and it becomes a much easier and
it actually becomes a very beautiful
journey because if you don't know the
purpose then it's a very difficult
journey and you're like oh my gosh I'm
gonna kill myself like this sucks
so I'm gonna start with purpose and then
head out from there and as things come
to me I'm gonna be sharing with you some
really rich information over time on how
to handle it and how to make sense of
this so if you are new to Twin Flames
and you're like I don't know what the
heck she's talking about a twin flame is
one soul and two people into people's
bodies that incarnated at the same time
and so there's all kinds of urban
legends and myths about what it is some
people say it's two souls that split
into half and then they they incarnate
they go through different lifetimes
separately one twin will incarnate into
the physical and the other twin will
stay in the spiritual realm and health
and then vice versa and then at some
point they incarnated in the same
lifetime and then they have to figure
out how to make that work and there's a
lot to that too and I'm gonna be talking
about that in future videos so there's
that there's the idea that that this
that one soul has attained mastery like
spiritual mastery and then because they
attained spiritual mastery then they
want to come back and serve and so they
split into two and then come back as
incarnated beings to serve at a higher
level so it's whatever resonates with
your soul really and what resonates with
my soul is that we are one soul in two
different bodies in this incarnation and
that there is a higher purpose to the
incarnation there is a mission behind it
and that is
uh sure in this new consciousness that
is taking place on earth right now the
new consciousness is one of love and in
order to be in union with your twin
flame you have to have a consciousness
of unconditional love and joy and so I
when I began this journey many years ago
I was the furthest thing from love and
joy and so I've had to go through a lot
of pain and a lot of suffering to find
love and joy and I feel like I'm still
on the path of allowing it to fully
embrace my body and my soul and
everything that I am my essence however
I'm far much further along in the
journey and far closer than I ever have
been before and so it's been because of
this journey that I am where I am today
with all of that with all my spiritual
walk in my my learning and all of that
stuff and so that is really the purpose
of this journey the purpose of this
journey is soul evolution and because we
are one soul in two different bodies the
purpose of coming together in this
incarnation is to evolve the soul beyond
anything it's ever experienced and to
evolve it into unconditional love and so
that can come with a lot of pain at
first I'm going to kind of dial it back
and give you some wisdom upon what I
experienced so I met my twin in 2012 had
no clue about anything about
spirituality or anything I was not on a
spiritual path per se I was in you know
it's like really kind of caught up in
the world and I was married at the time
and when I met this person
it wasn't like instant sparks it was
like a familiarity and I like I really
want to know you but I was married so I
was like I'm not gonna you know go down
that road but I just like had this thing
like this pool like I really wanted to
know this person like I wanted to know
everything about him and there comes a
point in your twin flame journey
you have what's called a soul
remembrance and that can happen at any
point that can happen instantaneously
when you first meet or it can happen
down the road so my soul remembrance
came a year later I'd know this guy for
a year and I still remember the moment
of Soma remembrance and I was not aware
that that was what was happening to me
at the time now that I've done some some
journeying and some learning about this
this whole process I now know that that
was my soul remembrance because it was
such a pivotal point for me in my life
and it was like I remember it like it
was yesterday it's one of those moments
that's like unforgettable and it seems
like it could be so trivial but it's not
it's really it's really a crossroads in
your life and it really directs your
life in a different path and so what
happened was I was on a plane and this
gentleman was on my plane and we were on
the same flight and I knew he was gonna
be on the flight and because I saw some
other people that I knew that would be
with him and so I knew he was gonna be
on the flight and so I go back to my
seat and I see him get on and there was
just like this moment of like
captivation for me and it was just like
oh my gosh like he's the most beautiful
man I've ever seen like it was just like
overtook me these feelings and emotions
and it was like what do I do with this
I'm married like I can't think like this
I can't feel this way about this person
like I don't even know him but it was
just like this overwhelming feeling of
like oh my gosh and so that's what I'm
talking about with your soul remembrance
it's like this overwhelming feeling that
you can feel it over your body and
especially in your heart chakra because
you're connected at your heart chakra
and so there's just this overwhelming
feeling
and I was like overcome and then I was
overcome with thoughts and feelings and
emotions with him and I could not get
him out of my head and I was beating
myself up for the longest time that
could not get this person out of my head
no matter what I did and I was married
and I felt guilty I'm like I rather
think of him that my own husband and I'm
like oh my gosh I was not in a happy
marriage either so I was talking it up
to that so say you're a few months later
probably about nine months after this
sole remembrance happened I finally
decided to leave my husband at the time
and we went through a divorce and me and
this gentleman my twin flame began to
communicate when I said when I separated
from my former and so here's like I'll
do a whole video on this but a lot of
people do meet their twin flame when
they're in marriages and other
relationships and so one of the things
that you have to do is you have to allow
the marriage to run its course you can't
force the twin flame Union and that's
something to remember about this whole
journey is you cannot force the twin
flame Union the universe will not allow
the force of the twin flame Union so if
you are in a marriage and you have met
your twin flame or if your twin flame is
in a marriage then it is not advised to
leave the marriage for the twin flame
let the marriage take its course it will
in due time the universe will work it
out for you and you don't have to have
the guilty feelings of leaving your
family and destroying all this stuff
because of this individual over here
that you have identified as your twin
flame so that's just a little caveat
wasn't meaning to get into that today so
anyway let me dial it back so we started
to communicate and I just thought I had
a really massive crush on this person so
I was going through the emotions and
about a year and a half into our
communication we didn't live in the same
cities so we didn't have an opportunity
to see each other he wasn't really
pursuing me so I was just like I had him
on the back burner like this guy must
just want to be friends I'll just leave
him there and what happened was I
started to get really attached and
really codependent and so I started to
push him away and what happens in
separation with your twin flame is that
the energies build up and so you are
polar opposites of the same soul so
you're the same energy same soul
resonance and what happens when you come
together when you meet or you're in
physical communication with each other
the energies built up and so what
happens is the one twin pushes the other
twin away and the other twin is pulling
the energy so it's like going like this
and so you can't come into union
whenever there is too much energy and
interference and there's not soul
resonance there to bring the two of you
together so I didn't understand this
obviously I didn't know anything about
Twin Flames at this time so I just
thought I was going crazy and I was like
I just I I blew up on him I told him to
get out of my life and I just thought it
was done and I was I would never see him
again I've never hear from him again and
as fate would have it my sister and her
significant other ran into him in Vegas
like randomly and that was about nine
months later and what happened was that
put me back into communication with him
and then we had another connection and
we we actually saw each other we
connected with this beautiful moments
and then BOOM like the energy built up
and we repelled each other and he went
running and I went chasing and then I
went to what happened then was here's
the purpose of this journey you guys
it's for your soul's evolution so at
this point this was now 2016 I had
started doing inner spiritual work I had
started to dive into my feelings and
emotions starting to identify what was
holding me back and here is I'm going to
give you a a book to get a hold of it's
called power versus force I teach from
this book a lot so power versus force is
written by David Hawkins and he talks
about the map of consciousness and there
is a map of consciousness in this book
you can also Google map of consciousness
so I want you guys to become very
familiar with the map of consciousness
because this is going to be your friend
on this journey so the map of
consciousness
talks about your evolution as a soul
with emotions and feelings and so you
start down like not everybody starts
here but the lowest of the low is shame
and that's whenever your body and your
frequency is calibrating at 20 or 200 no
at 20 so here's the thing I also want to
back up I want to talk about frequency
of a minute here because frequency is
very important in this journey so your
frequency is so we are all vibratory
beings we are all vibrating at different
speeds and some of us come into this
incarnation with really difficult
circumstances our families maybe don't
support us something happens in our
childhood that really defines who we
become and how we see the world and
sometimes those are often very difficult
and so it then begins to happen is we
take on this frequency and we take on
this frequency of those around us and so
I had taken on a frequency of shame and
guilt because my family lived from a
place of shame and guilt so my mother
was pregnant with me before she got
married and there was a lot of shame and
guilt around that so I had taken that on
and had taken that through my life so I
was calibrating very very low when I
began my spiritual journey and so is
constantly in the cycle of shame and
guilt and so going back to power versus
force so when you're in these lower
vibrational energies and your frequency
is low your frequency is emitting shame
your frequencies emitting guilt and
emitting anger and all of these low like
vibrational um feelings and emotions
then life is very difficult because
you're forcing life along and you have
to begin to raise your frequency in
order to get to a place of what's called
neutrality neutrality is up to 50 and
then at neutrality you can begin to
incorporate power into your life and
this is whenever things become
effortless this is whenever things work
out for you this is whenever
synchronicities happen this is whenever
you start to calibrate at a higher level
your frequency is up and you can begin
to enjoy life if forever
you know you begin to
incorporate love and joy and bliss and
eventually enlightenment and so I
started out at a shame and guilt like it
we're talking lowest of the low and I
was going through these processes of
really shifting my energy and working
with energy healers in order to shift my
body's frequency I didn't know at the
time that I was on that path doing that
but that's what was happening so after I
saw this man what happened was I began
to dig in so a lot of anger came up for
me and it was coming up from like that
route I mean like we're talking probably
lifetimes of anger started to come up
when I would be in contact with him and
then he would run because what happens
is when you're in a low vibrational
frequency and you haven't healed your
stuff then your triggers come up and so
that's what was happening my triggers
were coming up right my my triggers
where I'm not enough I'm not good enough
I'm not pretty enough I'm not wanted all
of those things were my triggers and I
swore by them and I carried them and
when those are your triggers your life
will reflect what your triggers are
until you heal the triggers then your
life gets to a flux something better
something different and so I was going
through this process of identifying my
triggers and working with an energy
healer to pull those out and heal those
triggers and I was going through all
these different processes and I will be
talking about sharing and offering
coaching in order to take you through
some of the processes that I went
through that I invested in and figured
out how to heal myself to get to a
higher frequency so anyway I the whole
purpose of this journey was to begin to
bring some of that stuff out so that I
could identify it and then I could heal
it and then I could transcend it the
purpose of this journey is alchemy the
purpose this is the ultimate alchemy Cal
chemical experience that you could ever
experience in your life uh you know your
children will trigger you
spouses will trigger you but nothing
triggers you to the degree that your
twin flame triggers you and it is the
ultimate alchemical experience because
what it does is if you want to be in
union with your twin flame you must
transcend the triggers and only one once
twin has to do the transcendence and
what happens is the soul because you are
one soul when the one twin begins the
process of transcending the triggers the
other soul comes into resonance with it
and it happens automatically and so one
of you contracted to do the inner work
one of you contracted to be the pool to
run away so that you would be triggered
to do the work and so that's the
contract and you all agreed on this
contract before you all came in here and
so the purpose of the journey is to find
yourself in what is in yourself where do
you need to get unconditional love that
is when I figured out this whole journey
of swar is for me to come to
unconditional love to forgive myself to
forgive those around me to let go of all
the anger to let go of all the fear you
have to transcend the fear to let go of
all the judgment I was so judgmental and
I was mostly judgmental of myself and
what I saw was that I was judgmental of
my twin as well because I was holding on
to so much judgment that all I could do
is project that judgment onto him and I
even know I didn't even know what I was
doing I didn't realize it and then I was
really really convicted around this
judgment and like oh my gosh I'm casting
judgment on him but it's really towards
me because I was so so critical and so
unloving of myself how many of you guys
are unloving of yourself and you're
self-critical and you're constantly
beating yourself up
you're constantly judging yourself
against the another woman another man
their success
whatever it is maybe you incarnated in
difficult circumstances and you're late
and you don't understand we all
incarnate in different circumstances and
some people do could incarnate in really
difficult circumstances I did myself and
so because I've had to go on this
journey and really find myself it really
honestly fall in love with myself it's
been the most beautiful rewarding
journey that I've ever been on
I had no idea no idea until five months
ago about Twin Flames I have no idea
that I was in an on a twin flame journey
I just kept following the I got a phone
call coming in sorry I just kept
following my bliss I just kept following
the trail and one thing led to another
and that's what you're doing right now
you're following your trail and you're
finding videos like this all over the
internet there's so many different
things out there and I've done a lot of
research around this you know and I
really want to encourage you guys to go
inside I really want to encourage you
guys to go with your resonance what
resonates with you it's not about
looking for external like I'm here to
help you and I'm here to guide you but
it's not about looking for the external
okayness you know like there's there's a
lot of people dig using divination tools
like pendulums and cards and and they're
getting readings done by psychics and
they're getting readings done by and
that's all well and good and that's fine
if that makes you feel better but I also
want you to invite yourself to go back
to you because this journey is
ultimately about you it's ultimately
about finding you and that's what the
thing that I finally realized that was
so beautiful about it was that this is
this is like me finding me like I got to
go and experience this and I'm so
freakin grateful I'm not even in union
with my twin flame right now we're not
even speaking and I'm totally okay with
it because what it has shown me about
myself and the love that I now get to
give myself and then also give a
people because I submitted to the
journey and I said okay
it's been the most beautiful gift I
could ever have been given in this
lifetime I really believe that and I
believe that that's why we're on this
journey if you are a twin soul and you
have a twin flame who has incarnated at
the same time as you and you maybe have
met maybe you haven't met yet maybe this
is coming to you and you're like I
haven't met this person but this is all
coming into my path and my awareness and
it's getting you ready for it whatever
it is it is the most beautiful journey
because it's a journey of ultimate
purpose and what is ultimate purpose
ultimate purpose is love unconditional
love and I spent the vast majority of my
life hating myself coming down on myself
for being triggered by nonsensical
things that honestly should not trigger
into my being and I just made a judgment
there but I spent my life judging myself
hating myself condemning myself not
believing in myself not loving myself
how many of us do that how many of us
are constantly looking in the mirror
beating ourselves up either by our skin
or the way that our body looks or
because our hair doesn't do a certain
way or whatever it is how many of us are
comparing yourself to other women
another men this journey and this
purpose is for you to find you for you
to find love and that's that love starts
with you and then when you find that and
you clear all that energy and you
neutralize all that stuff then and only
then can you have union with your twin
flame so this twin flame journey the
union is the gift it's not the goal and
I want you to remember that unions the
gift it's not the goal and it's a
beautiful powerful gift when you get it
when you get to unwrap the gift but you
have to do the work first you'll have to
come to wholeness within yourself you
have to vibrate at a higher
frequency and you have to find love and
the only way to fibrate at the hires
frequency is to find love within
yourself and there's a million different
ways to do that I've done it and I have
the tools if you are interested at all
please leave a comment you can send me
an email whatever and I can help to
guide you on that path and I'll be doing
that through my videos as well to the
extent that I can gonna be guiding you
and helping you on this path so anyway
thank you so much it's I was not meeting
it for this to be 25 minutes and I am
super grateful that you're here and I
encourage you to tune in every Tuesday
I'm gonna be dropping in new video and
who knows I may drop more frequently if
you've then Tuesdays but Tuesdays is
what I've committed to mmm on this
journey so I invite you to tune in every
Tuesday I will have a new new video on
here for you guys to help you on this
journey because I know from personal
experience how painful and how
emotionally like all over the place it
can be so anyway I love you guys thank
you so much for tuning in I'll see you
next time
